Down on top of you and there is nothing left for you to search for. You begin to wonder and wait for the new beginning and a closure. When everybody around is gone and your love is scorched to death, all you want to do is forget. Blur out the visions in your mind forever. Your will to survive becomes endless in search of a future you will find nothingness. Two more steps farther you will walk, crawling into complete insanity, pastures of schizophrenia, hills of illusion. Mother Earth in distress, charred at the tips of your toes. No food, no water, no life.
Tomorrow died, today forgotten. You will not be remembered.
                                        Written by Daemonaletha

PS: This is based on one of my dreams I had a while back.

Days ago or something, I can't remember though but me and my boyfriend Andrew (corrected: Satandrew) were walking around downtown going to get some iced coffee and go to the library to find Satanic books and other kinds of interesting stuff to read, so we run right passed this preaching christian (doesn't deserve to be capitalized) starts handing us booklets about their false beliefs and Satandrew says "Hail Satan!" to the guy. Than I reject a booklet to and said "fuck that shit.." or something on the lines of that. So than he starts preaching about how we are going to regret that and we are going to Hell and all this bullshit. I gave him the horns which I should've gave him the "BAD" finger in the middle of my hand. As we get farther away Satandrew hears that fucker saying if you be like her your going to burn in Hell for all eternity. Satandrew turns around screaming "Shut the fuck up you stupid fucking christian!!!! Fuck Jesus Christ! Hail Satan!" I couldn't stop laughing because who the fuck is he to judge and pick through people like that, he was no one, always will be no one, forever! And when he has cancer and dying or some shit and sees the "light" we will be there to piss all over his face.

Ðæmoиaletha

PS. Don't let sheep and religion take advange of you. Make your own decisions for your life.
If you have something against this to fucking bad!

"Don't be a slave to a god that doesn't exist!"- MM

Lately things with me just haven't been right. From being in constant physical pains to an emotional train wreck. I don't want to be like this all the time and I'm trying really hard to be a good girlfriend, but at times I really don't feel as if I'm wanted, maybe its because I'm really insecure, emotionally unstable and its in my head or I'm actually feeling this way for a reason. I'm tired of being like this and want these pains to end so bad, I would do anything for it to go away. Everywhere I go I have to worry if I'm going to have chest pains, disorientation, seizures or fainting, so I have to prepare for the worst all the time. It's really scary like I could drop dead any day now. I'm tired of being stressed out. I feel like I'm losing the most important person in my life right now from my phyiscal and mental problems.

CxZ